i fall flat
in wallowing pain
past tears
growing colder
close to falling out

i knew these were my last
savor them i could not
for what happyness,
can be found in death ?

i tried to remember
who had done the deed
it didnt matter
it was done
i tried to remember
whom i had loved
it didnt matter
i was done
i tried to forget,
the bloody pool
i found myself in
i could already smell,
my stench

why am i not lost
to the depths of death?
why am i still longing for life?
do not, the dead, sleep still?

i closed my eyes
in morbid surrender
i feel my heart
skipping
in wallowing pain
past tears
growing colder
falling flat
 
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