I used to have so much pain,
But because of you it all change,
For you I would give up all my fame,
And now because of you I’ll never be tha same,
I don’t know why to you I’m so mean,
When I am inside my head I scream,
You are tha one I’m sure I’ll choose,
If I don’t I will most likely lose,
I wish I have never made a mistake,
Because I have so much at stake,
I used to have all this fucking rage,
And wanted to shoot myself with a 12 gage,
Also be very sacred of tha dark,
Lastely a very broken heart,
Then what I would do with you is fight,
I knew every time it is not right,
I wish you were in my shoes,
To show you how I’m confused,
I always try to keep that inside,
Oh believe me I have tried,
I use to never have one that cares about me before,
But now I can tell it’s not close to being true anymore,
I have told you everything I fear,
And you always have an ear to hear,
Whenever I look in tha mirror,
Down my face was a tear,
Stephanie is her,
That gave me a cure,
To me you are tha very best,
With you I want to make a nest,
I used to always get taunted,
Like I am always haunted,
I also know that I am very deceiving,
That’s tha reason I used to always be bleeding,
Even though I know I’m different,
You still think I’m heaven sent,
I will admit there is stuff wrong with you,
But there’s something wrong with everyone too,
Also you do hurt me a lot,
Many times we have fought,
You make me jealous more than anyone,
And I wish you would have done none,
And when you told me you have drank or smoked,
Tears always run down my face and I’m soaked,
I did everything in my power to help you stop,
And you only have some left of it to drop,
You are tha reason I cut a couple times,
I’m lucky I never got a hold to any of tha nines
You’ve broken my heart yes,
But I don’t think of you any less,
You’re human and you make mistakes,
But every time you do my body aches,
We both really don’t like life,
But im tha one that used a knife,
I know I have hurt you also,
And I have been really low,
Tha worst thing is I called your poem to me a lie,
I wouldn’t blame you if you wished I would die,
Thinking back to all this makes me wants to cry,
I’ll do that in front of you even though I’m shy,
Through all this we are still glad to know each other,
And I still want to cuddle with you under a cover,
And we noticed together we are very clever,
I know one thing, we will would be together forever,
It sucks we’re miles away from each others arms,
Once we hug sparks will unite and we’ll hear fire alarms,
I would do absolutely anything for you,
I know for you its tha same way too,
I need you till my dieing day,
I don’t even know how to say,
I love you with all of my heart,
I will stay with you if I’m smart,
No matter what happens I will love you,
This was tha only way I’m able to show you,
I hope you know that all this is real,
And you know tha real way I fell.

 
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