I remember Fifth grade

Like it was yesterday

I watched her sit on a bench

While the other children played



I was an outgoing child

Eager to meet new friends

I walked up to her, said “can I sit here?”

Shyly she replied “well that depends”



Will you make fun of me,

Because I don’t talk so much?

Will you ignore me and push me aside?

Leave me at an empty table at lunch?

Will you call me names behind my back

And roll your eyes at the happiness I lack?



I smiled at her and said

“Silly girl, have you lost your head?

I promise not to be mean

If you promise to be my friend



From then on up

We were best friends

Introduced her to mine

And she was happy again



All through middle school

She began to struggle with grades

I’d come over in the evenings

My friend was beginning to fade



I saw right through her faking and lies

To find her not eating

Was no longer a surprise

Her boyfriend kept telling her

She was too fat

I became so angry

I yelled at her instead

“Get rid of that jerk

He’s messing with your head!”



She left him behind

She began to smile again

The days counting down to 8th grade graduation

Slowly but surely began



I knew we’d be friends forever

Of this I had no doubt

We were split into different schools

She started breaking the rules

But I refused to give up



My friend, she stopped talking to me

And I tried to ask her why

She told me to leave her alone

I never bothered to reply



Apparently she wasn’t doing well at all

I wasn’t there to break her fall

Depression for her, was nothing new

Her parents never even knew



I remember the night my friend disappeared

Forever replaced with so many tears

I have never known such pain

For her carelessness, others had to pay



After the guilt and anger

I was to tired to hate to her



I remember fifth grade

But not like yesterday

The memories of our good years together

In my heart, they remain

She is no longer the girl on the bench

Or my “sister”, my other half

Never again around, just to have a laugh



I suppose that from this I’ve learned

her innocence was so quickly turned

Into a darkness she couldn’t describe

I wish my best friend was still alive

 
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