Last night I dreamt a dream.
I woke up crying
i felt an emptyness inside.
so badly i wanted to hide.
dreams i have, make me like this.
maybe it's just guilt that i have
for what i said, when i wrote you.
i wish i could take back what i said to you.
but you made me so mad when you didn't show..
at the time i hated you.
now i feel this pain
i feel like i'm under a down pour of rain.
it feels as if the down pour is endless.
with drops of rain pelting at my face..
i fear it will never go away
i'm waiting here for a new day.
i want to write you,
but i'm scared you won't write back.
is it all a waste of time?
People say it's going to be fine..
But what if it takes you?
Why can't they just find a cure?
I will never face the fact..
i never could get how people could act..
how can they say it's going to be okay?
you're cancer is terminal..
You can't leave me here though
If you leave, endess tears will flow.
people see you as my cousin...
to me you're my big brother..
i ask myself why it has to be you..
i ask myself what it is i could do...
last night, i dreamt a dream..
It was a dream i've had before.
My tears woke me again last night.
I promise you I'll find the light,
To make the sadness go away.
I'll stop hiding in the darkness...
I just need to hear you'll be all right.
So my tears will never wake me during the night.
I prayed for you last night before bed.
I often wonder if God even listens.
IF he hears how much you mean to me.
I wonder if you even see.
How I hate it when you're mad
How just seeing you're smile makes me so happy.
How hearing you play that guitar soothes my soul.
This whole thing is spiraling out of control.
I hear of your pain and it crushes me.
I saw what pain you were in, it trampled my heart.
I hate seeing you like this.
You can make it better, i know you can Chris.
Just have a more positive attitude.
It helps, its been proven.
Just get away from all those things,
Getting away will give you wings.
To let you out of all this chaos.
To make you happy again.
I hate it when you're mad.
Just seeing you're smile makes me so happy.
To hear you play that guitar soothes my soul.
I'm no longer falling down this massive hole.
I'm sorry for anything I've ever done to you.
I hope you understand.
That I love you with all of my heart.
And now I realize we will never truly be apart.

 
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