Background: this poem is to my very bestfriend and x-boyfriend, Michael, who
was killed almost exactly 3 years ago in a shooting. It's about how
when he left I changed everything about myself and tried to lock away my
past; act like nothing happened. But, now I'm just me again... and I
accept and live with every part of my past, because mike always wanted me to
be me.


All we used to do was rhyme
I could spit a verse anytime
You were always down for a late night ride
We kept it real, side by side
How can I keep on living without my air
I dunno how much more I can bear
Nowadays nothing goes my way
With you, you always made everyday my day
I was so scared at first
My mind, body, and soul had burst
But God came and put me back together
He told me you'd be with me forever
I knew you didn't want to see me cry
So I sucked it all up and said good-bye
I packed my shit and moved away
It's been hard waking up without you everyday
Look at me, I've forgotten who I am
I've forgotten why I give a damn
You made me see I am the best
But since you've left , I've been blind like the rest
I'm sorry I've lost myself
It's time I take me off the shelf
And bring you back to into my life
I'll continue pushing through all the strife
But only for you, because that's what you want
I'm going back to our old font!

RIP Forever... I miss you more than anyone could ever know!! 1984*2001
 
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