Feeling like I’m eleven again.
I feel trapped.
I feel no light.
I want to shut myself in.
Shut everyone out.
I have so many doubts.
Everyone,
They think I’m childish.
I didn’t believe I was.
I thought I was me.
I thought everyone would see the me I see.
The person that is hidden,
Behind all my layers.
When that person even peeks,
Everyone runs.
I don’t understand…
I didn’t think I was that bad In the first place.
I didn’t believe I was acting that young.
I don’t know who I am anymore.
I am no longer the person I thought to be.
I have lost all train of thought.
I’m losing all my friends.
I don’t understand all this pain.
I don’t understand all the hate.
I don’t understand the comments.
I just want to curl up in a ball.
I just want to cry this pain away.

 
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