I cradle my life with these tears
Bloody on the inside
And bruised from past abuse
Beaten within an inch of death

I'm clinging onto what I thought
Could relieve it all
Take the pain away
And release everything inside

The promises and dreams
Tainted with a dose of reality's truth
Never again
I won't hurt anymore
I'm letting it all out
See these scars?
Remembrances of you...
All the pain I felt inside
Has been revealed

I'm telling the truth
No more lies to cover the secrets
With how I really feel

You're going to know now
It hurts and you won't like it
But you are not alone

I am familiar with this
This overwhelming pain
That I've kept locked up inside
For so long
So scared to confess the truth
Of what I've become
Of what you made me
Fearing the outcome of your response

You are in control of the pain
Set me free
Release all the guilt and shame
That I have directed onto myself
And cease the suffering

Clot the blood before my veins smother
Stop all the anguish and hurt
Admit to it all
And succumb to your heart
To the love you once felt
So many years ago
Untainted and pure
When you were once content
With your life

Was there not ever a time
You looked into my eyes
And all sadness and despair faded?

Or when I was but and infant
And I wrapped my tiny hand
Around your finger
Did a tear not run down your cheek?

Did you ever feel
That kind of love for me?
A protective, maternal love
So deep that not one other person
Could fill the space

You tell me everyday
How much you love me
I believe every gentle gesture
Every promising word
With confidence in myself
To get through the day without you

But as each word found it's way
Into my memory
Every promise seems to have been broken
Every dream seemed
To spiral downward
Defeated by lies and false hope

I sat and watched
As my hero
The one who taught me so much
Crumbled to the ground

My tears fell upon the path
On which I lost you along the way

Please come back
It's time to live your life
Hear me out
Listen to me
Just this once

I will never give up
A daughter's bond is too strong
You will forever be in my heart

I have faith in you
Can you see my tears?
They silently cry for you
And only you
Knowing that at least
One person out there cares for me
It keeps me alive
It is the only thing
Harnessing my sanity

So please...won't you take my hand now?
Hold on tight
Never let go
And make this all go away...
 
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