Sometimes when the world seems to spin too fast
And i can't balance the future and past
And a feeling of dread seems to last
...thats when my depression starts to mold its cast

I want to live
But more to die
I may not be here tomorrow
So say your last good-byes

Maybe i can take away
The flaws of the earth
By making a self-sacrifice
And erasing a sinful birth

No one's here to stop me
So why even try?
It's not like i would listen
I think i'm going to cry

The tears scorch my soul
And the unforgiving ground
They run and burn for an eternity
Although there is no sound

No one comes to rescue
The lost little girl
That needed help long ago
When she dropped the last small pearl

From the string of her life
That never seemed to hold
Breaking at the slightest tug
God help me, i'm so cold

It looks pretty damn friendly
This knife in my hand
Warmed by body heat
I dont think i can stand

To live another moment
I see the flames of hell
They scare and frighten me
My mind starts to yell

I am so confused
I don't know what to do...
I'm so fucking cold
My lips are turning blue

Through my brain screaming
I desperately try to ration
Does what i'm about to do
Have any glamour or compassion?

And what's the point of dying
When i could live to aid
People with my thoughts
Of death and of knife blades

Rocking in the corner
On the bathroom floor
I shiver and try to understand
What suicide is for

Angry at myself
I finally resolve
Gritting my teeth
That it's the coward's way to solve

A hurtful pain or problem
Where someone strong
Would find another way
The fix the problem and carry on

Living life to the fullest
Knowing people make mistakes
The world will not stop turning
Every time something breaks

Whether it's a lamp
a heart or a car
things are always flawed
And can't always make the bar

For ideal perfect living
that nobody achieves
and to give up quite so easily
is just being naive

For each next day you live
It's possible to smile
At some other poor soul
That hasn't seen one in a while

So when life is so horrible
That you feel you can't go on
Remember to look up
to face another dawn
 
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