Time to put up your defenses again
Dear girl
Time to ready your heart for breaking
Dear lover
How is it that things always
turn out the same
Even when their future
looks so promising?

This time I was sure
things would go differently
I thought I’d found the one
But now I see its all the same
My heartaches just begun….

Perhaps I’m overreacting as usual
I pray my fear’s a farce
But everything seems
to be unraveling just as before
My love is falling apart

So once again I am left
to pick up the remnants
Of my painful past
And with it construct a defense
Once again I am forced
through no will of my own
To block my love’s estranged
and dwindling advances

It hurts so much to push you away
But you began this whole fiasco
It hurts so much to turn
my back to your tears
I wish I could overlook
our obvious damnation
And live a lie
at your side throughout my years…


But reality is not easily ignored
Her clamoring
Demands attention
To stay with you
Would create hatred stored
…I’d much rather live a memory
Of our dead affection

So I’ll continue to construct the walls
That further separate my heart from your advances
..With the little time left
I’ll keep my dying love in view
And struggle to cultivate our lingering chances.

 
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