This pain is starting to get to me, although I need to try and stay
strong. I feel so helpless and lonely, with no where to turn. Is my life now
heading to no where? Where am I going? I feel the need to cry, even though
my emotions are stuck inside. I never knew something like this would happen.
Why did he have to go?
The agonizing pain and the sleepless nights aren't helping. Everything
seems to be going in slow motion. How do I make it right again? Is this
life, or just one big nightmare? When can I wake up? Please, someone, shake
me. Just wake me up from hell. I just dont get it. Why did this have to
happen? What the fuck did I ever do to God to make him take one of the
people who I love and whould do anything for, away from me? Is he an angel
with wings, or just another play thing? Why can't I just cry? I want this to
end. I want everything back to how it was before I decided to grow into
reality. I wish I was a little child again, not knowing any better to what
is right or wrong.
I didn't want you to go. I didn't need you to go. You were always there
for me. You always helped me, no matter what. You always brought the room
full of smiles, just by walking through the door. I didnt know how much I
really do love you, until I realized that you were gone, and weren't coming
back. So now your just a memory, trapped in my head full or good memories,
with laughter, now turned to pain. You are now my guardian angel, watching
over me, each and every single day. You spread your wings, and fly through
the clouds, smiling like you always did. You now have a bright halo, that
shines brighter than the sun on the hottest day of the year. Forever you
stay in my heart. Never forgotten, even on the worst days. For I love you,
and forever I always will. For you are my guardian angel. Full of life once
again. So spread your wings and fly away into the beautiful sunset. Off to
heaven and onto the new life of happiness.
 
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