in the dark I sit and wait for you to come and come you do but only in my
dreams
they haunt me as i see you and me alone in the light of the stars
holding hands i smile your kisses are so sweet like honey that comes stright
from the bees
then suddenly i feel a sting
im watching from the side
as my soul starts to die
for its not me your holding
Its not my lips you are kissing and then i scream i scream so loud my throat
tears my heart breaks not in 2 pieces not just 3
but im a millons of pieces
as i watch them fall to the ground im drowing in my own tears i want the
pain to end i wish you were my mani wish i had that last chance to show u
how much i care
God i just want u in my arms agian
i want to be the girl you've always wanted the one you dream of at nite as i
do of you u want that last chance to be(what was the word you always used)
Cocky
and suddenly im awake holding my pillow so tight wishing it was you
I sometimes ask god why he gave me this special gift and then took it away
as if Id just forget Did he really think id forget the way you took all my
pain away even though it twas you who gave it all to me
and then i smile as i rember the first time us 2 became one whole
laugh as i rember how i had no clue what to do but ur hands guided me all
the way
u always asked if i was ready if i was okay and i keep crying as i rember
all the good times we had sneaking around my favorite times were when we
just laid by each others side we seemed to have fitted just rite
i try to close my eyes but am to afraid of what ill see will it be just u
and me i doubt it theres always 3 i look out my window and see oue times
together flash before my eyes how could i have been so niave to think that
they would last forever but then agian there all that matters the day u came
to me was the day i started to live the day u left i started to die
and the kinda death is not a prize as ne other way but torchur
i lost my heart mind and soul when i lost you and i dont know how to get it
back TELL ME PLESE im so cunfuzed
i feel love hate anger and sowwor all at once i dont understand what uve
done to me(will i ever?)
you became part of me and with u gone so is half of me did u see behind my
mask? is that y u had to leave in the end
i wish i had choosen a fullproof one that wouldve even fooled me that is
totally differnt from me because i realise now as i look in my mirro that no
one could love me and feel not the pain of my hand but of the pieces of my
broken heart some where a long our happy road i lost u i lost every thing i
wanted to be but gained every thing i thought i threw away some how u saw
the true me behind the mask and smiles and it wasnt good enough for you its
not good enough for any one not even me
i realise that u cant just throw who u r away the lord knows ive tried to
change but i see him laughing at all of my fears silently watching all of my
tears and i hate him to i hate every one who has ever had one breath every
one who tells me they understand thats he a worthless man and i need to look
ahead but there is nothing ahead but lonley days and ice cold nites
if hes so worthless the y would i care y would i have dared to risk every
thing for him BEACAUSE YOU MORANS I LOVE HIM no matter how much i say its
not true no matter how much i laugh with them about u
it doesnt matter what i say or do nothing matters to me but u
nothing is what i have nothing is what i had everything is what i want every
thing i never got i lived off hopes i breathed off dreams now im dying now
im suffacting in my wake i try to dream and try to hope but how can i hope
with no dreams how i can i dream when all i have are night mares i cant i
wont no matter how hard i try i countinue to cry where do these tears come
from?my broken heart. a heart once pink is black as coal i try to find the
light but im dommed to the dark domed to to cry. dommed to die.
 
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