I let you into my life again dad,
I let you take me by the hand,
Now you dropped me again,
You will Never get back what we had,

I don't need a dad like you,
Especially not if this is the shit your gunna do,
I thought i had my old life back,
But you had to ruin it for me, Thanks,

I guess i just don't have what it takes,
To be your daughter because i heard you call me a slut,
I don't have a single friend that this story relates,
Because no one has a dad willing to give a child away,

When you call my mom those things though,
Common sense could tell you we are through,
Why is it that every chance I was given you blew,
Thanks dad, when i thought I was becoming a normal kid again,

You think I'm not going to hear those messages you left,
They are on moms cell phone why would she hide them from me,
I cant believe you would say that stuff about us,
What kind of person do you want me to grow to be,

When you call me a slut do you expect i will become one,
Because sometimes i just want to give in to all this shit you call me,
When it comes to excuses i don't got none,
Its my fault i shouldn't have come crawling back like a bitch,

I knew you would hurt me and leave me bleeding,
To me it feels like you died,
I cant even control this feeling,
You hurt me so bad,

As a kid i used to have nightmares about you dying,
Not knowing what to do at times,
I would wake up crying,
Not anymore though your not in my dreams,

Now your in my nightmares,
From that time you hit me with your fist,
To now while you are stabbing me with words,
I cant hold in these tears because the pain so badly hurts,

I reached out to you when i needed you the most,
You went three months without talking to me was it even hard,
Or am i just a ghost,
I don't feel your love anymore,

To me it feels like you cut me with your eyes,
You think i do all these things when I don't,
And you telling me i do is making me want to,
But don't worry mom i wont,

Because on moms sober nights i know she loves me,
I know its hard for her when he used to hit her,
But now he is after me and I don't know what to do,
I cry so hard my eyes burn and all i see are blurs,

Ok well here you go daddy heres what you don't know,
I was raped at the age of thirteen,
That's right your daughters a victim not a hoe,
But i couldn't tell you because you would tell me i was lying,

Don't worry daddy everyone does,
Oh and since you took me in for that test and i came out clean,
I have started doing drugs,
I just want to put it all around you so you are blind,

Also daddy guess what I am having sex with my boy friend,
But that's the only guy i have willingly gave myself up to,
You don't know how scared i am,
To know the guy who raped me is living right next to door...do you,

There's something else you need to know,
I am in counseling for slitting my wrists,
I did it because of you,
Only when I am really pissed,

I have been in counseling because i cant deal with your shit,
I don't have a dad, a mom, or a sister,
Soon I will be taking those pills because doctors say i cant deal with it,
But you don't know that because I'm scared you will hit me again,

My sister was given up for adoption,
Mom was broke and drunk,
She was left with no other option,
So she is gone now and I'm alone,

Dad doesn't care though,
Mom is a drunk and she's never really quite there,
And when she is she thinks of sad ass excuses to kick me out,
I don't really have a home anywhere,

No one really wants me at all,
I don't know where to go,
And then I let you hold my life by the hand again but you left me fall,
You dropped me again.
 
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