I was told “Don’t cry out loud, just keep it inside,
And learn how to hide your feelings,
Fly high and proud, and if you should fall,
Remember you almost had it all.”
I have so many times cried,
Wiped my eyes and buried the pain inside.
Can’t forgive myself for being so blind,
To not see all the good things that were mine.
I was always hiding feelings,
Didn’t want to face what I was dealing.
I’d cry in secret when no one was around,
When they were, I would hide my frown.
I felt worthless,
I felt like nothing- something people wouldn’t miss.
Again I buried my pain,
I would never be the same.
Then I had to let it out,
I had enough of my secret pouts.
So when no one was home I trashed my room,
I spat and swore, I was filled with doom.
Yet after the words had been spoken,
I had received my token.
My token of life,
And I have never again cried.
Yes, there have been times where tears would fall,
But I wouldn’t stall.
So I never again cried tears of shame,
And rarely tears of pain.
My tears rejoice,
I made my choice.
I will not hide my feelings,
Because I know what that means.
 
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