after we're off the fone
i keep holding the reciever with a cold look on my face
but when im sure you're no more on the other side,
when the dial tone starts screaming in my ear
thats when my feelings come out
its when my tears start to part my eyes
i whisper an 'i love you' with a voice so choked
even though i know you didnt hear me
even though i know you never will
but it feels like i know somewhere in the back of your head
you can hear me say it
you can sense the pain
and feel the hurt

ever since this whole thing started
i've become someone else
someone weak..feeling so vulnerable
and yet trying to hide my feelings in every way,
just because i dont want you to feel guilty!
but everytime we're hanging up the phone
i get so scared
that it would be our last
that something would happen in between this phonecall
and the one after
and it just scares me so much
because i look back, before you came along
and i try thinking of what i used to do
what used to make my life special
and thats when it hits me
thats when i realise you are the one that gave a meaning to my life
i used to feel so safe with you, so secure
i used to trust you so much
i believed in everything you said
i trusted every word that parted your lips
those lips that now touch another's...
you say no one can take you away from me
but if someone made the love you had for me vanish in just a few weeks
then i have the right to fear losing you in just a minute
you used to say it wasnt possible
you used to say your love was too strong for anything to get in its way
but after everything that had happened
i dont trust that anymore
and when i open up
and tell you how scared i am of losing you
how anything could happen after what already had
you say that am right
that anything's possible now
thats when i cry a river
thats when i pray to god
thats when i tell him i dont want to be right anymore
oh..do i wish i was wrong!!

all these thoughts cross my mind in a flash
as i hold the reciever after ur no longer on the other side
as the dial tone screams in my ear
all these thoughts cross my mind when i say the words 'i love
you'
the words you cant hear
the words you dont hear
the words you never will!
 
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