It started off as a game,
I never excpected what it became,
My own neighbor i though i could trust you,
At first we were all playing,
Then it was the wrong game,
Time to settle down and watch a movie,
There was five of us there including me,
As it got later my eyes got heavier,

Before long I was asleep eyes closed dreaming,
But what was going on wasn't what it was seeming,
I woke up to you holding my arms,
My nightmares came out into reality,
As if the dream was seeping into what used to be,
To wake up to this was like a wakeup call,
To what the world is really like,
Humanity doesnt care at all,

You held me down and looked into my eyes,
While I realized you were taking away my sanity,
I didnt want to let out my cries,
Because my little brothers where sleeping next to me,
How could i let them see me like that,
But now i wish i could go back,
I wish I would have screamed for help while he did that to me,
Mostly so i dont feel so guilty,

Im left with the question,
Was it my fault,
And why do i still feel like im sitting there in the dark,
Because he stole my heart,
He took away my feelings,
Making me question things,
I hate when guys touch me now,
Because something will happen and itll be my fault somehow,

While he raped me my eyes clouded,
I remember the feeling my my heart racing,
I remember wishing I would die or he would kill me,
So I wouldnt have to live my life pacing,
Like i do now around my window watching,
Making sure its safe before I lay myself to sleep,
I used to have a praier I said before i went to bed,
But now a new version rushes through my head,

Now I rock myself to sleep,
I pray the floor boards do not creek,
If I shall die before i wake,
I pray I dont forever have nightmares of my rape.
 
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