I Hate You –
Love was once a positive feeling
I never though there will be negatives.
But I should have been ready for the unexpected,
Because love is full of expectations,
But it never lives up to its name.
Hate on the other hand does,
But used less often than love,
I hate you.
Never once did I think I could hate someone
But there you came along ruining everything I stood for,
As stupid as I may sound,
You were my worst decision in life.
It’s because of you I’m thinking about suicide
Scaring up my arm with you being my blade,
Walking around weak and weary
Collapsing to my knees crying,
I hate you.
Why did I fall for you’re convincing voice?
Thought I saw an angel in your easy brown eyes,
But knowing you to sly not to lie,
Filling my heart and mind with things I want to hear,
But not near of telling the simple truth,
Your screams always make me feel like I’m the bad guy,
When I didn’t believe one of your pathetic lies,
I hate you.
For creating me into a human monster,
Bringing sadistic thoughts of my own pain,
Countless nights I fell asleep while bleeding
Waking up with you right beside me
Screaming at me why I have cut,
Repeatedly asking me why I did
But I can’t tell you the truth,
That, I hate you.
I’m not able to speak my mind to you
So I lied about why I cut,
I said it was just family problems,
God how can I have so much hate towards a human,
I have to tell you how I fell,
I must get it out of my mind.
Called you and said I have something to tell you,
Takes a deep breath and tenses up realizing I can’t,
I love you.

 
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