I place my head upon a pillow that I’ve had for so long,
It has felt all my dreams,
And heard all the wrong,
The place I’ve escaped to,
To hide away from the pain,
The comfort that I thought would-
Make it go away.
I’ve tried to take pills,
But they just make it worse,
Pretending your better,
is their curse.

Reaching for a subsitute ,
Trying liquid rememdies,
Only lifted me,
To fall harder on my knees.

I attempted time and time again,
To leave this world behind,
To forget it all,
And let it drowned in abstinence.
Those have come and gone,
Always breaking back,
Because I knew it was wrong.

I’ve hid behind masks,
Shades of colors without a past,
But they only last so long,
Until they fade,
And I have to quickly,
Find another shade.
I look at what I have,
And I am ashamed,
That I risk everday,
The people I love,
And I never care,
Even when push comes to shove.

So I take the hand that never leaves,
My father in heaven,
Whom I know can help me.
I’ve drifted away fallen too close to a grave,
In which I stand on pleading knees.

I cannot live life,
Without him
And just I,
It doesn’t work,
I don’t suggest you try.

I won’t let myself wake another morning,
In pain,
I won’t anymore let those tears flow,
I cannot let those screams fill my soul anymore.

So I’m taking one step,
One step to the Lord,
To get my life back,
And be the person I know,
Should show.

 
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