I glance down at the street
My eyes gliding over the faces
Of the onlookers below
I feel your breath
Upon the back of my neck
You brush my hair aside
As you smile a whisper into my ear
"Jump."
I turn around to look at you again
Through tear stained eyes
Of despair and confusion
And something inside me dies
As my heart is anchored in my throat
I turn back around
Mouthing an emotionless goodbye
Through clinched teeth
And a stubborn frown
I close my eyes
My feet left the ledge of the building
I leapt to what was to be my death
But I could not leave this world
Without one last glance at your face
Opening my eyes once more
I looked up to see your image
Through the evening dusk
I could just barely make out your face
Your eyes laughing at my fate
Snug like a rope around my neck
Accepting defeat, I bow my head
Tears stream upward
With help from the pressure
I wish I gave you one last kiss
I'm falling fast and it's smothering me
Suffocating
The atmosphere is cruel
My lungs collapse
Memories of shards of broken glass
Arguments flee from the past
And back into the back of my eyelids
The ground becomes visible now
As if in slow motion
I fall further to the street below
Plummeting fast toward the ground
And the heartache weighs me down
Like an anchor behind my sternum
I imagine how you must look from here
A microscopic blur with laughing eyes
This is your fault too
Three feet away now
Smack.
My body collides with the concrete
Smashing my bones into dust
My love into hate
Instant death



 
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