Having all your friends,
think that you so pretty.
Having all the guys you meet,
like you and not your friends.
Sounds like it's great,
well think again.
Do you really think it's all that great,
to be all that pretty,
but then not even be able to get the one guy you want?
Do you really think you are that pretty just because people say so?
No it's not like that at all.
Do you think you just look in the mirror and go damn I look fine?
Do you really think you don't have any imperfections?
Of course not,
but what do you do when you try and tell someone?
All they think is,
what could possibly be wrong with you,
your pretty, gorgeous, they tell you it's true.
But deep inside you wish you could hide,
because you don't want this life.
You want to live outside yourself,
and see how others see you.
You want to change yourself,
but you know that if you do,
you will only be hurting yourself to.
All you want is for someone to listen, like you do for everyone else.
All you want is for someone to hold you,
and tell you it's going to be alright,
even if it's not going to.
You know that if you have one person tell you that,
it might impact your life.
But how do you find someone to do that,
when you do it for everyone else.
You can't talk to yourself,
and tell yourself it will be ok.
You can't hug yourself,
and wipe away your tears.
It just doesn't work like that.
Like I didn't ask to be this way.
I didn't ask to have guys think I am hot.
I didn't ask to be the advice girl.
Life just played out that way,
And I am losing the game.
 
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