***this IS true.



I closed my eyes so I couldn't feel,
To fall away to the unreal,
the only release I have without you
When your gone,
and I can't seem to know what to do.

I layed in the bathtub,
the water too warm,
my mind was speaking
I tried to ignore.
The whispers were too much,
what they'd suggest had a lush.

I had to give in,
but you were on my mind
all I could think of
is how you'd survive.

I slid myself down
I told myself it wouldn't be hard.
The water slid over my mouth as I tried to recall
how it would feel to drowned.

I went beneath the liquid bliss,
choked my lungs,
and that was it.
I rose above the liquid grave,
coughed and coughed and cried that day.

My head I lyed on the tile beside,
clenching inside
what I couldn't hide.
I love you,
I love you.....

I wouldn't let go,
because you are worth more,
you are why I chose to live,
the only reason I have to give.

My silent screams that I have,
you can't hear
when I hold them back.

You embrace me,
and I cry inside.
Because,
you love me,
and I can't understand why....
 
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