Things I wish I could say to him
You know it wasn't what it could have been,
I'm just lucky it was anything.
You know you did what you had to do,
I just wish I had known how you felt.
I can't get over what we were,
Even though it was hardly anything to be proud about.
I miss you and all the things you stood for.
There are days when I can't get you out of my head.
There are things that I remember that I dread.
I could have many chances for someone else.
But it wouldn't be fair for them or myself.
I'm stuck on you.
You may not like it
But that's the way my heart sets its goals.
I don't know what else to do,
Or what to think right now.
Only that I'm determined to get you back
Today feels like a day where you would come over,
A warm breezy day.
Maybe that's what it is,
The weather is reminding me of you.
I can feel you in it,
one of those days where we would laugh all day long and share secrets.
You seem closer today
I can't explain the reasons
I wish I had the courage to call
To somehow get you back again
But I feel lost and vulnerable
I am scared of the consequences of rejection
I'm going to live wondering for the rest of my life
About what could have been
It's a sad feeling,
A feeling of emptiness and loneliness.
I'm scared of having my dreams crushed.
And seeing my hopes washed away by tears streaking my face.


 
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