My life was never meant to be
This world is not for me
Almost everyday I wish I was dead
But thoughts of you pop up in my head

What in this world have I got to live for?
All these problems swim in my head
Never leaving me for one moment

I look at these scars and think of what they did to me
They didn't make my life worse, nor better...
What have I got to live for?

I always feel alone
Even in a crowd of screaming people
Nothing ever gets better..only worse..

Thoughts of suicide dance in my head
Voices telling me to do what they say
But somehow I fight them off for a moment
And then they're back again

I think of you and my love for you
And everything gets a little better
For a moment

Talking to you makes everything seem better
Even though it isn't
It makes me believe everything is better
For that moment

You saved my life more than once
Even though you don't know it
You possibly never will

But if you leave me, what will happen?
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