I can feel my heart literally crack deeper
It’s hard for me to breathe at times
Because I am so afraid that the crack will spread
Until my last breath gives.
I hate you so much
For not loving me
I hate myself even more
For trusting you
I hate you for leading me up
SO HIGH
Then for dropping me
SO LOW
SO FAST
SO HARD
I miss the way it was
When you use to look into my eyes
Before I knew about her
When it was just you and me
And no one else
That time was so short
And yet so precious to me
But now…everything is wrong
You’re with me and her!
Holding your hand use to be so grand
Cuddling in your arms gave me security
Kissing you use to be priceless
Our sex was true
But now…it is not right
I long for your body next to mine
I cry at the thought of losing you
And when I see you with her…
I freeze and go numb
I run and hide
I can’t breathe or think
I put my head down
And try to fight back my hot tears
Once more I can feel my heart crack deeper.
I AM SO SICK OF THIS FEELING
Being 2nd…not good enough to be 1st
I feel used and unwanted
My stomach is in knots
My mind is so dizzy
My heart is so broken
Why can’t I fight this feeling inside?
Why do I so easily give my heart away?
Why can’t I just turn away from you?
Why, for just once, can’t I be good enough
to be number one?
Why can’t you love me? :- /

 
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