Take a deep breath
Close your eyes
I will prove this one last time
I love you with all my heart
Darkness may make you blind
At the very start or make you not believe
This little fact
But saying it should be enough
Even if it isn't’t I’m willing to prove it somehow
Your running away why? Don’t you believe that I
Really do love you?
I’ve been there done that
you don’t understand
Like you say you do
It pisses me off when you say I’m too young to know what love is
Do you know the meaning of love?
I honestly cant say I believe you do
It seems as though we’ve lost touch
Have since I was 8
At least it seems that way
Cant you believe me when I say I love you?
Or do you think this is a game I’m playing?
Well this isn’t a lie
I ain't trying to fucking hide from u or none else
I ain't fucking scared like you think I am
Hey dad guess what
I ain't a fucking little girl no more
Your I love you’s seem so forced
Is this a lesson I’m supposed to be taught?
I know this fucking shit will never fucking change
Yeah I’m fucking mad
I’m mad at you
For ignoring me for 7 fucking years
You ain't the only one who lost somebody Dad
He was my grandfather dad
I lost my best friend when I was fucking 7 dad
Why the fuck cant you understand
You’ve ruined me and ruined my life
I don’t understand why your doing this to me
Why are you hurting me?
Why it cant be like the old days?
When I was little and you said hi to me
When you said “I love you Les”
When we joked and played around
Why cant it be like that? Why?
This is full of questions that I want answered
As I told mom this is the very beginning of a very dysfunctional family.
I know how this works
At least I think I do
I know I cant hate you forever
Even if I tried
If I could I say “I love Dad” and not begin to cry
When I'm all alone at night......


 
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