why do i want to die?
it's gotten so bad i can't even cry,
everyday this feeling gets stronger,
and i don't want to live in this body any longer...
i think about putting that knife to my skin every day,
but then i think of you,cry,and then pray.
life is not worth living i tell myself,
deep in my grief and denial of needing help.
the wolves howl to the chorus of my screams,
I'm only alive in my dreams,
I try so hard to wake up happy,
but the tears wont stop coming from the night before,
it's too hard to stop now,
to stop this life that I've lived so long,
with all the screams,tears,and blood that shed,
i thought i was dead,
then i met you,
i looked into your eyes as you looked into mine,
you made me realize i was alive,
you made me feel safe,
you made my scars and fears go away.
Now i think of that blade,
making blood drip from my vein,
and i cant,
i cant leave the things that made me feel so alive,
so i wont quit,
not today,
I'm not a quitter,
i will stay
 
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