Locked away
In the deep recesses of my mind
Eyes pierce my soul
Swallow my dreams and my dignity
Turn off my emotions
Remain tough inside
I become numb
Wake me from my trance
Justify my fears
“Why?” I yell at myself.
I close my eyes
Replaying countless memories
Thoughts sway between intense guilt and anger
I drown from a sudden wave of shame
In the back of my mind
I have always known
Nothing is ever enough
I shake my head in disgust
I am a disease
A parasite
I make everyone I come into contact with
Miserable
But I bite my lip and press on.
Days turn into weeks
Weeks turn into months
No matter how much I pray
Things never seem to change
Maybe I was not meant to be
No, I am not going to do this again.
I refuse to cave in.
I will rise to the challenge
I will NEVER give up.
Everyday is a precious gift
And with my determination
I will be free.

 
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