You left because of my scars
Or that’s what you said
Now I feel like shit
I wish I were just dead.

I thought we could have something
Like, maybe we had a chance
You took my every breath away
With every glance.

I told you I needed you
To help me be strong
I had hoped you wouldn’t get mad at me
When I didn’t something really wrong.

You made me think you liked me
Enough to even turn to love
Every night I’d say a prayer
Thanking the creator from above.

But I gave you my heart
And my all too fast
I was damned if I really thought
That this forever would last.

Now I’m left here
With these memories scattered
And I’m stuck asking the question,
“Wtf…did I even matter?”

I broke my promise
And you broke my heart
So I guess we’re even
Now lets restart.

I’m SICK of my scars
And of this cold empty feeling
I don’t wanna cut myself
Right now I think I’m healing.

But I’m so scared that you left for good
All because of me
If I would have just kept my promise
None of this would be.

Sometimes I feel like
No ones really there
It doesn’t matter how close we are
Or how much I think you care.

I just feel empty
Like I’m on my own
I could have a million friends
And still feel completely alone.

I need your care,
Comfort and love
I wanted you beside me
When things got rough.

But what I want and need
Apparently aren’t the same
I cant keep putting my heart on the line
I’m so sick of playing this game.

GOD! I’M TELLING YOU
I WAS WRONG!!!
WHY ARE YOU STILL MAD AT ME?
You’re NOT helping me be strong!

 
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