A Fire and Mixed deadly chemicals
My mom with a full, fast beating pulse
Saving the lives of others for her life purpose
Never thinking her life would end this way

Going Everyday like it was her last
My mom never let one minute pass
Until one day she went to her usual checkup
They said she had a disease, that was a big help

It was called pulmonary hypertension
its where your circulation fails you in your time of need
Oh yeah it turns out she couldn't breath either
so she need a lot of little breathers

After many months of coughing and aching
we didn't know it was her life god was taking
She was in a wheel chair that was very use full
Everyday was half empty to me but her it was half full

When we told her to stop smoking she said it wouldn't help
We tried to get her to stop because it was not only hurting herself
I wanted to save her from all of this pain
But I was only nine what could i possibly say

Long after her sleepless nights &days
She soon went into the hospital for weeks and weeks
And one time she went in and never came back
I never heard her voice or her laugh again

I remember the last time i saw her its like it was yesterday
In the hospital room laying with her on her bed, She couldn't even
speak
I can imagine how it would feel to be in her position
Not being able to breathe or use your own body, feeling so weak

I went home with my aunt and uncle so my dad could stay with her
I never really new what would happen, never really knew about life and
death
Then we got a call the next day, they said to come quick
So we came and i thought she had gotten better but boy was i wrong

They said she died just five minutes before we arrived
And her last words were tell the kids i love them
i remember hoping it was all a joke and she would come back
But everyone kept saying "I'm sorry" which made things worse

We went and saw her body one last time
and it was so pale life less but it was my mother
and my dad hugged her and she didn't move
I asked my self who will i hug and how will i get through?

And at the funerals which everyone came
it was so bad because they played amazing grace
which was mine and my mom's favorite song
hearing it again was so slow and it took so long

I can only remember the times when my mother was sick
i wish i had memories where she was her true self
and not on breathing machines and using wheelchairs
If i had though memories they would be worth so much wealth

When i said good bye the last time i saw her i never though it was the last
goodbye
And i pray to her and say I'm sorry for not telling her goodbye one
last time
And I just wanted to say this to her
I love you mom always and forever

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