I know I promised not too,
I know that I promised that to you,
But the temptation is just too strong,
And such things as these cause me to go wrong.
I know I shouldn't make myself bleed,
But you don't understand, it is something I need.
I can control the pain,
And that bit of control keeps me sane.
I'm trying so hard to stay on track,
I don't want to end up going back,
But the blades seem to call my name.
They promise to take away all the pain.
Why is it that I believe it to be true?
Is it that I can't see it from any other view?
My mind so use to hiding those tears,
I've hidden my sorrows for so many years,
And now when they are allowed closure,
It is then that I break and loose composure.
Tears begin to run down my cheeks,
From the pinned up anger of so many weeks,
I try to remember what I promised you,
And I struggle and try not too.
Not to give in and let it take me away.
So I look into your eyes and tell you it's ok,
And I decided to live for another day.
 
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