He holds me down, he tears my shirt,
until I can not breathe.
He thrusts and moans, sweats and smiles,
then fills me with his seed.
I cry for help and want to leave,
but there's no one there to hear.
I never thought he'd do like this,
the man I held so dear.
I feel so scared and want to run,
my body feels so sore.
He looks at me, smiles and says:
"You're just another whore".
This memory has not faded,
not until today.
I take a glass of water,
and try to go away.
The white pills feel so good,
in my small shaking hand.
I've waited all my life for this,
it's a trip to my dreamland.
I take a sip of water,
swallow them one by one.
I wish my useless life,
never had begun.
I lie down to wait, on the floor,
I made sure to swallow all ten.
This broken soul is put to rest,
to never wake up again.
 
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