When I first met you

I thought we had what it takes

Now I’m figuring it wasn’t even real

You smiled at me

Even when I was upset

I managed to smile back

I knew what was hidden

And how this was being kept alive

I wondered why you even made me cry

Why I wasted my tears on something that wasn’t real

Why I spent every night hoping you’d say you loved me

Why I wished I could hang on

why I even bothered to try

I swore you wouldn’t hear me cry

But no matter how hard I tried to believe it all

I knew what I felt to be true in my heart

Losing you to her was a day I’ll never forget

Cause for once I let you see you had won

And truly caused me such pain

But even after this I still lived in vein

Praying your love would come back

Knowing for fact you weren’t coming back

I thought this was the last time

Yet when we talk on the phone I feel it all over again

That unsettling feeling that reminds me of what we once did

Reminds me of the history we had

Life wasn’t funny anymore

Wasn’t all fun and games

I felt the sun on my face waking me

Each and every day

Hoping my dreams weren’t really real

Feeling helpless and full of fear

When you speak my heart skips a beat

When you smile my mind makes me smile back

When you laugh I can’t help but laugh

When you cry there is nothing really I can do

But the wipe the tears off your face

And try to make things better

Even though this long poem won’t make me feel any better

Seeing you only hurts me more

Reminding me of something I’ve wanted for so long

Hoping in the end you’ll see

This isn’t the end at all.......

 
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