Everything I did to you
I promised I'd never do to him
But I can't seem to find my way
This Borderline will finally win.

You think I am fine.
He tries to save me every night.
Attempting to commit suicide
And I know that it's not right.

Only he knows the truth
This rope almost took my life
Because I am tired of fighting
Shit, I even tried a knife.

What am I to do now
With this "progress" that I've made?
Drown the pain with alcohol
Bleed from this cold blade.

I'm tired of smiling
When I'm crying inside
Portraying what you want to see
Cause there's no where left to hide.

I guess it's okay
you can think that I am fine.
Because nothing will change...
Not even with time.

- February 18, 2005 @ 4:57 am
 
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