Screaming in pain
Crawling with blood on my hands
Holding my heart
Trying not to go back
I used to hate life
I lived with no light
I’d sit in my room all day
All night
Listening to music
Influenced by the sound
I tried to die
Being killed on the inside
I was so tightly held
Suffocated myself
I was in hell
Chained in my own mind
I felt like time just slowly went by
Every minute felt like forever
I’d just cry
For hours and hours
I tried so hard to be happy
To not be fake
To not just put on a show
I painted all my smiles
I didn’t feel alive
I walked around looking like trash
I didn’t care about what you thought
I’d kick you’re @!$
I’m smart
I fought
Always thinking I was right
But never opened my mouth
I messed with there heads
I was one screwed up kid

 
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