*note to reader=he wasn't cheating on his girlfriend with me, we have just
been friends for for a really long time, well, had been friends, way before
he even met her. so don't think of it like that.*


Wake up
Take a shower
Get ready for the day
Sit and wait
Wait all day until dark
Call him, just to be sure
Be sure that his girlfriend will be gone at 10:15
10:15 comes
I call him
We talk about nothing
Sit in silence for an hour or two
Finally a topic comes up at about 1:00
I start to cry
He says he hates it when I cry
He says he wishes he were there
I wish he was too
He says "I love you do you know that?"
I say "yea, I know. I love you too."
I love him so much
I need him to be here
He says he will always
At 4:30 we leave other
We both sit and review the conversation
We worry about each other
Then slowly fall asleep

This was every Saturday^
Now…

I don’t want to wake up
I don’t want to take a shower
I don’t want to get ready for the day
I still sit and wait
Wait all day until dark
I don’t call him to be sure
But I know she will be gone at 10:15
10:15 comes
I lay in bed staring at the phone
Wanting to talk to him about nothing
I still sit in silence
And a past topic and conversation comes to mind
I cry wishing I was still with him
I know in my heart he still hates it when I cry
I know he still wishes he was here
I wish he was too
I know he still loves me
I know he knows I still love him
I really do love him so much
I need him to be here, even though he’s not
What happened to always?
At 4:30 I stare at the clock
Thinking, what did I do wrong?
I worry about him. He’s changing.
I slowly fall asleep.

Now…
This is every Saturday. ^



 
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