Look at me, look into my eyes
I... I am all ready dead.
The tears I cried
Should have never been shed
The words I spoke
Should have never been said.
And the only thing I'm left with
Is you in my head.

Like a broken record
Your words play through
My time is now up... actually...
It's way overdue.
You were so perfect
But I fucked that up too...
I wished to be yours
But it just wouldn't do.

I have no choice
But to try and let go.
The blood from my hands
Is starting to show
I didn't mean to
But you all ready know
The words that I speak
Make the world turn too slow.

You've heard it before
What I say isn't new...
But why couldn't you beleive
That my words were true.
The pain is unbearable
You don't have a clue
If only I'd known
The things that I knew.

This space between
Has grown too wide
Even if you felt the same...
Your hands are tied.
Constantly saying wrong choices were made
At least acknowledge that I tried
I gave up my life but I couldn't have you
Now in my head is you reside.

What point is there to this life
When I can't have the only thing I need?
Because in my head
your love is my creed.
These pigmy cuts
Will slowly bleed
But you turn your head and walk away
There is no use... for your love I'd plead.

You once promised me
You'd never disappear
Yet you refuse to talk to me
Saying that darkness is the only thing to persevere.
You were my light,
You kept my skies clear
And now that you've gone
I've lost the will to fight off this fear.

What can I do?
I can't replete what I lack.
Is it wrong in this world
To give a person some slack?
The need for your presence
Has turned my world black
But I've given up this time...
And there's NO turning back.

- July 19th, 2005 @ 3:44 pm

 
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