my heart beats
it pumps my blood faster every second
it pumps the adrenaline that rushes through my veins
my fingers clench
they tremble as i tightly hold a fist
they tremble as i squeeze out the distaste
my head throbs
it pounds with these never-ending thoughts
it pounds with this never-ending hate
my eyes blaze
they pierce with hopes of shattering her
they pierce as i stand here and wait

and something inside of me erupts and overflows,
an anger, a fiery fit of jealousy, an envy
and i inhale until my lungs will hold no more
and they stretch until they hold no more
so will you hold my hand? as tightly as you can
because i'm losing my grip and i'm starting to trip
and here i go... here i go...

bang my head into the wall
bang it once again
into a world numb to it all
just so i can breathe again
scream it out until i fall
screaming once again
into a world deaf to it all
just so i can breathe again
and my lungs are about to burst
as i breathe again;
just breathe again...

my heart refrains
it seeps and overflows with permanent scars
it seeps with hatred, hurt, and pain
my fingers shake
they quiver with fear of my nightmares coming true
they quiver as i drown in the blood of his name
my head suffers
it aches with age-old memories
it aches with thoughts of him being sickly insane
my eyes water
they cry tears of deep secrets and little white lies
they cry tears of humiliation and shame

and something inside of me erupts and overflows,
a phobia, a desperate depression, a hatred
and i inhale until my lungs will hold no more
and they stretch until they hold no more
so will you hold my hand? as tightly as you can
because i'm losing my grip and i'm starting to trip
and here i go... here i go...

bang my head into the wall
bang it once again
into a world numb to it all
just so i can breathe again
scream it out until i fall
screaming once again
into a world deaf to it all
just so i can breathe again
and my lungs are about to burst
as i breathe again;
just breathe again;
just breathe...
 
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