Just the thought of it scared me
To have something squirming and writhing inside of me
Scared me frozen
Why would anything choose to have life from me?
I’m not worth the time
But any other choice would be murder
So let the little shit grow
Give it a few months
Then give it a better home…
That isn’t scared of it…

Time passed and it grew
It grew and craved
And sucked life from me
It felt like a burden
And it made me bitter
But when the pain started
I began to feel different…

Oh god, it heard my insults
Now it can have its retribution
Against the one who forced it to this
It wanted to make me hurt as I had made it hurt…

When it finally came out the pain was gone
…It’s…she’s…beautiful
The rainbow after the storm
My little rainbow
My little sun
How could the pain in my belly
Be so beautiful?
But she is; so you can’t have her
You won’t take her away from me…
my little angel...

 
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