We go to a party in a shady part of town
A left at the street with the projects, 2 houses down
I don’t know anyone there except the chick who likes to look at my chest
We made friends though, maybe the wrong ones, but friends none the less
Anyway, the juggalo love made us all tight, it didn’t take very long
Everyone shared the booze, the beer, the bowl, and the bong
The girl who thinks I’m cute whispered, “my friend thinks you are too”
I went over and talked to him, fed him lies, especially my age was untrue
We sat on the couch and just chilled as everyone laughed until they had to
piss
He got serious though for a minute, embraced me and we started to kiss
I’ll be right back he said, as he went to the refrigerator that was already
raided
He was cute, I didn’t really like him, but everyone was so heavily
intoxicated
He told me he wanted to talk to me alone so we both went out into the hall
He grabbed the back of my head and kissed me hard as I was forced against a
wall
He grasped my behind, picked me up, and carried me to a room and slammed the
door
I was so scared and didn’t want to be in that position, “this wasn’t what I
came here for”
He ignored me and pinned me against another wall, kissed and touched me
places I didn’t want him to be
My eyes were moist with tears and fear, I was shaking, thinking “I don’t
like him at all cant he f-ing see”
I wanted to tell him to stop but the knives and the pistol on the mantle
next to me urged not to do so
With his parts sagged it was now rubbing against me, he made me grab it and
told me not to let go
I was so angry, yet petrified, because I knew what he was going to do
I felt so stupid, cause all things considering I guess I should have knew
He undid my belt and unzipped my pants I knew what would happen next, I knew
the whole course
Sex was not a new thing for me I just never in my life had experienced
feeling like I was forced

Just as he was pulling off my pants my phone rang, good change of plans, I
wasn’t staying the night, my ride was here now
I thought I was strong and I thought I could stick up for myself but I guess
in certain situations you just forget how

 
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