The world is empty to me
There is no happiness, no joy
Nothing
Where is the smile that I used to have?
It's replaced by only tears now
Thoughts racing, hands sweating
Where am I?
Who am I?
My heart cries out to anyone
Help me
Please
I'm alone in a sea full of people
All content with their lives
Content enough to keep me out of them
The world is cruel and ruthless
Never caring, never trying to understand
I take a breath and there is no air for me to breathe
It is even too good for me
I look at my wrists
I see them
I remember how good it felt to run that blade over them
And do it again and again
Until the pain finally stopped
I need that
I need the pain to take away my pain
The pain of life
I want to feel it
I want to see it as a reminder
Not to others
Not for attention or pity
But for me
The pain, it feels so good
Drowning in a sea of my blood
That's where I am
That's where I need to be
Nothing matters
Not like it ever did
The world is fading from me
I can't see the people anymore
And I feel at peace
The final tranquility of my soul is more than I can bear
I want it again and again
I need it
The love I once had in my heart is gone
No more
There is no point in loving anymore
For there is always hurt and pain at the end
Who will actually love me?
Who will take me into their arms
When I am crying in the darkness
Lost and alone?
There is no one to hold me
No one to hug me
No one to love me
No one

 
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