I lived in a shadow
Away from the jeers
unleashing no happiness
showing no fears
so ungrateful
hiding in the dark
the future looked bleak
and ever so stark
drowning in ignorance
my outlook on living
was 'there is no purpose'
time isn't worth giving
determined to cling
to the ridiculous thought
that i was fond of nothing
and my heart was draught
i put out the fire
with the sole of my shoe
of thoughts of emotion
and things hurtfully true
it all worked so well
until that unreal day
unhappiness dawned upon me
my soul was in decay
i was horrifed to see
something roll off my cheek
a single, glistening tear
proved as a human i am weak
followed by another
till my entire face was wet
not only from my grief
but also from regret
i can't remember laughing
or shedding a tear
butterflies in my stomach
or truly feeling fear
the tears just kept on coming
from the depths of my soul
at first i tried to stop them
but they were beyond my control
with them came feelings
and smiles i never gave
amusing childish laughs
and trying to be brave
nervousness and hurt
paranoia and shock
unbelievable things
that were too hard to block
i stare at the floor
at what i have released
and simply walk away
and know my trouble's ceased
 
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