I’m the only one,
The only one you had.
But soon ill be gone.
Living your lies,
Promises we intend to keep.
Don’t mourn for me when I die.
You knew it was coming.
Remember all the times I cried,
And you just walked by.
Remembering what you said
Now I understand you don’t care at all.
Maybe, just Maybe
Instead of saying you loved me
You could have shown it.
Because I know you really don’t.
Actions mean more than words,
And all you ever said were a bunch of words.
What Happened?
The past is in the past.
But I intend to look back at it,
Because it’s a constant reminder of who I am,
Nobody.
Thanks for saying all those hurtful things everyday,
That made me feel like shit.
And everything that happened is to much.
I don’t know how its possible to start over now.
Remember the time when I cut myself,
And you saw me and just left.
Well I remember.
You were never there for me,
Your not there for me now.
Why would you care?
You don’t.
I want to share so much,
Let everything bottled up inside me out.
But I can’t.
Too much has happened,
Now its just part of me.
If only you knew,
If only you just looked deep inside me and saw all the pain I have.
Than maybe you would understand.
But, you don’t.
Some things are better to be left alone with.
You took me apart, and when you rebuilt me.
You built me with pieces missing.
So, how do you think I feel now?
You knew it was coming,
I know you felt it.
There’s only so much a person can handle,
Before they realize this is not what they want out of life.
That’s exactly what I realized.
You say your sorry now.
But you really don’t mean it.
What you have done is already done.
I cannot erase it,
Even though I would give anything if I could.
Remember all the times I lay on my bed crying,
Just starting at the ceiling.
You may think I’m joking,
But I’m not.
Why would I be joking?
If you knew how much I hated you,
You would understand.
Or would you?
But it’s over now.
I have so much I have to say,
But there is simply no time.
So many memories I cannot forget.
I learned to deal with my pain,
But now it’s just eating me alive.
Bury me with my feelings, beneath all of this.
I still cannot forget what you caused me.
Trembling again I lay in the darkness,
Waiting for all of this to be over.
I just don’t think it will ever be.
So how about I just end this now.
Don’t try to make things better,
Because, you will only make them worse,
Remember when I said I loved you.
Well I meant it.
You just never really cared enough to see this.
I gave you, your chance,
But you just screwed all of them up.
So this is my goodbye.
I learned something out of all of this,
And I regret that you will never find out.
Some things are better left forgotten,
And you forgot all the things you did
To make me end up this way.
So while you’re at it,
Why don’t you just forget me.
I’m not that important to remember anyway.

 
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