All the times,
The good,
The bad,
I loved you
And I still do.

That’s why I’m sitting here,
Right beside you.
Ill always be here
With you
You’re fading away
I cant do anything

The memories are bitter
And some cold
But ill always remember you

You hold my hand
You say your goodbyes
I tell you to hold on
You let go
Let go of life
Let it fade away
As the life flows out of you

I pay for your bill
I plan your funeral
I helped you with everything that no one has ever helped you with before
I go through your stuff
I’m there now
I’m finally there
But your not there
You never will be again
I lost you forever

I walk out of the house dressed in black
Ready to cry once more
I prayed
Which I barley ever do
I hoped
Which I never have hope
I come and sit with other friends and family
Even though I was the only one to really care
That’s why I’m the only one doing things for you

I talk
I say I loved you
Even though I told you that
I don’t think you know that I meant it
I meant everything
I meant everything that I said
I truly love you
And I’m telling you that now
Just so you know
Since I never told you that

As I walk into the door to my house
I look around
I read old letters
I look at photos
I write something down
And then go to the kitchen
I pull out with knife
And sign the paper in my blood
Then I cut a little deeper
And it fells good as the blood flows out of me

I watched the life flow out of me
Out of my bones
Out of my soul
I watch myself die
The way I watched you
Watch you fade away
Watch you die
And I couldn’t do anything about it
Like I can’t do anything about what is happening to me

The next day
Someone finds me
Dead
Blood is all over the floor
And I’m sitting there
With the note in my hand

It’s a note to you
My dear love
It’s telling how much I really love you
And how much I really care
Even though you wont get it
I will know that I tried to let you know

So there is my death
All for you my dear
I’m sorry if I put you through too much
I didn’t mean to
I swear to you
I die for you
I tried for you
But I’m here
Now that your not
But I’m still here
And I always will be


Dedicated to my aunt who died a couple days before Christmas and to my
Grandmother that died on Christmas.
 
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