My heart aches at the thought of you
Right now I’m confused about us
And have no idea what to do.
Your painful words play over and over in my head
Which makes it harder to forget them
But easier to think of them.
Although my heart cries, my eyes won’t let me.
Instead, my mind replays thoughts of me and you.
And it hurts that we can’t be what we used to
Because the statement remains true,
That, Confused and lonely me is all I have now
Because no one else cares,
I thought I had someone
But contrary to my surprise, you were never there.

Incidents of the past make me question why?
Why did I forgive you? Why do I love you?
Why didn’t I know what to do?
All my anger shows through my face
As I look into your eyes with hurt, sadness, and fear.
Because our relationship is not at its best place.
But yet I shed not one tear.
I won’t let myself cry
Because you will see
Then what will you think of me?

For the fear of crying is too overwhelming to bear
But in all reality, I must let it out
Although, my mind gives me a reason to care
Crying shows weakness
And weak am I not
But lately I’ve been proving myself wrong
And now silly me Is all I got.

 
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