I drove away,
Just to watch you in my rearview mirror.
I knew it wouldn't last,
It reminds me too much of my past.

You whispered such sweet words,
And I believed them like a child believes in Santa.
I knew it couldn't be possible,
How could something like that exsist?
But in the end, I was right.
I saw you as I left that night.

I held your hand for one more moment,
I begged for you not to turn away from me.
I wanted to breathe you in my lungs,
And hold you up above the pain.
I wanted you to be in every vein.

I struggle with the words to say,
What can I say, when goodbye's not what I want?
What can I do to make you stay,
To lie to me and tell me that you really did mean every word.
When will you try to make me your fool again,
And say, you loved me, even back then.

One more tear will fall,
One more moment my heart will break,
And then I will remember, it's ok-
Even though it was all fake.

-March 16, 2006-
 
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