A drug, you’re like a drug to me
And I, I am nothing but your little slave
As you beat me, you bruise me
You rip me all apart inside-
Yet I come crawling back, come slowly and quietly crawling back,
A glutton for the punishment you bring
I lust for it, need this unyielding pain-
It all falls away, my being… my self
Replaced instead by walls that you build, lies that you build-
You hurt me so much, I need you so much
Loathe you so much, love you so much
And I don’t know what to think anymore
I don’t know what to do anymore
Now that you have taken control-
Maybe one day I will regain what I lost, take back what you took
But for tonight, for tomorrow, for days to come
I’ll keep crawling back
Keep crawling back to you

 
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