What have I got to show for my time spent with you?
A large phone bill I’ve spent months and months paying off
A million heart breaks that always leave me crying
A million thoughts about one stab would make it feel better
Then a guilty conscience because I promised I wouldn't

What have I got to show?
Like the little kids at show and tell
Reminiscing about the best
The wonderful joy that one small
Object has brought them
But my show and tell is nothing like the others
All I’ve got to show is
Nothing but a bunch of pain
Nothing but a million heart breaks
Nothing but a Christmas gift that never came
Nothing but broken promises
Lingering in the wind
Like a leaf suspended by the gusts
Never falling to touch reality
Just hanging on to one last hope
One last linger till it plummets to its death

I’m got nothing to show
For show and tell today
It’s been a year and five months
My how the time has passed

How pathetic is my life
I’ve spent more than a year of wasted nights
Like the drunk that can never remember in the morning
A year of worthless phone calls
(Well not so worthless really...
I got the happy times
The laughs
The smiles
The pain
The heartbreaks
The sex
The wonderful time
Of knowing you
The feelings
The love)
Not so worthless but I’ve got nothing tangible
Nothing but some spoken words
That come to haunt me in the end
Words that leave me empty when it comes down to
The cold lonely nights
And the Friday nights spent at home

What can you do to make it real?
Make it tangible
To be able to touch your commitment
Like your wonderful skin underneath my touch
To be able to touch your affection
Like cuddling after a wonderful movie
To be able to touch the romantic things
Like the teddy bear you promised for Christmas

I love you with all I am yet
I hurt with all I can
The tears pour down my face
I’m just another child crying
When daddy doesn't come home like he said he would
As you hurt me again I’m just
Another dream trampled

You’ve taken your foot and put it on the ground
Like a rose trampled
In the middle of a city street
People too busy to watch out for it
It’s trampled and beaten
Yet the fragrance lingers in the air
Reminding you of the horrible things
The masses can do to one so small

Another wish turned to dust

I blow the dust out of my hand
And watch the rainbow specs flitter away
Winking excitedly at me
As I sit in the corner crying
The glossily blue tears streaming
Down my face and out of the titanic
Eyes that believed I would touch you
And your greatness that lingers in my mind

Yet beyond all of that I can't do it
I can't leave I can't walk away
What holds me so captive yet so free?
I’m not sure
What binds me to you?
You’ve given me nothing why can't I walk away

 
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