Right now I'm going to end my life.
"Come on girl, pick up that knife."
Just end it at the slowest speed.
"Smoke that joint, inhale that weed."
What's the voice inside of me?
"I'm the only thing you'll ever need.
The thing that's deep inside of you.
The only thing that's always true."
The image in the mirror, her eyes are burning up.
"That's you silly! It's because you're a fuck up!"
I know that I'm a failure and an unhappy little girl.
"Why are you here then, god you make my blood boil."
The tears seem to leak from my eyes.
"Quit hiding behind this damn disguise."
I'm such a fake, always hiding behind this mask.
"See! You ARE worthless! Now let's complete this task!"
This razor blade to my wrist, oh I'm ready for blood to show.
"Yes! Yes! Yes! Push down hard, drag really slow!"
Oh, that hurt a little bit, Jesus Christ that's deep!
"Oh my darling, look at your arms weep."
The bleeding won't stop, it's dripping on the floor!
"You want this Sierra. Now make a few more!"
Voice, my only friend, are you sure that's the right way?
"Yes, the only way to take away the ripping pain, now do as I
say!"
Voice, I think you've failed me. My body's growing cold.
"No, you are only doing as you were told."
I think I need somebody's help, I've fallen and can't get
up.
"NO! Lay there and suffer, you shouldn't disrupt!"
Oh god, voice, I really need help!
"See Sierra, you bring everything upon yourself."
I'm screaming, why is no one helping me?
"This is what you get for trusting the ones that said they cared, you
see?"
My vision is getting blurred, my body is numb.
"I said you brought this upon yourself. It's not my fault
you're dumb."
But it is your fault that I'm going to die tonight.
"Ha, I know it is. Just give up this fight."
So dig the hole 6 feet deep my friends, I'm dying soon so farewell.
I'm giving up.
"This is what you get for never being good enough."

 
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