Inhaling the toxic fumes,
Breathing out steadily,
Observing the smoke floating away,
Feeling the burn in my throat,
These cigarettes are deadly,
But that doesn't stop me,
From grabbing another,
And lighting it up,
Breathing in the aroma,
Of deadly poisonous gases,
It's my deadly secret,
I'm hiding from my parents,
They think they know whats good for me,
But that doesn't stop me,
From shoving my hands down my throat,
And vomiting up my dinner,
My only meal for the day,
Nobody knows my disorder,
Did you know I'm bulimic,
And I can't stop losing this weight,
I need to keep going,
No matter the end result,
I'll probably come to regret this,
When I am young and dying,
My immune system is faulty,
And I cannot stop the disease killing me,
It's a decision not taken lightly,
I now exactly what I'm doing,
It's not a sickness yet,
Though I'll probably end up dying,
It's wrong and stupid,
Though nobody knows,
And I'll continue this battle for perfection,
Till I've been founded out,
But by then it'll be to late,
And your words cannot stop me.

 
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