There you go again taking away my dreams
Suffocating my memories
Leaving me to look through these eyes while they glaze over
Happiness is no longer
You say its for my own good it'll make me stronger
Drowning me with in an inch of my life
Then slitting my wrists with a knife
But making sure it's just not deep enough.
This is love you say.
It has to hurt.
But in fact you just love seeing the wound in which the blood has spurt
You say if I really loved you I'd do it myself.
Mutilating every inch of hope till my heart bursts in flames
But I'm just a part in another of your games
The glow in your eyes says it all
You say the tension makes you feel 10ft tall
Where as I feel huddled up small.
Reality is more than a dream you said to me.
I don't know what dreams are anymore.
Bit by bit you've intoxicated me
My hearts filled with needles and acid
Although my body is now placid
I still feel your touch.
I long for it more than anything.
Which quite frankly may seem insane
But I'd rather I was with you even if it was in pain.
As without you I'd be nothing but scars.
No one holding me up against the cage bars.
Yet I still wouldn't want out.
I wouldn't scream for help, I wouldn't shout.
I'd stay there lost in my own thoughts of despair.
The door could be open but I wouldn't care.
If all the poison in my life was sucked away so quick.
I'd feel nauseous, I feel sick.
If nothings wrong and I'm just me.
Then without you I would be.
The scars would fade and memories would return.
Inside my stomach anxiety would churn.
Without you I am like an empty liquor bottle.
What was once poison becomes nothing.
 
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