Here I go again
Taking what does not belong to me
Stealing the happiness from another
To try and pretend I'm special like them
So I can see what it's like to be loved
But as soon as I grasp it
It sifts through my fingers like sand
Only leaving the tiny shards of glass that dig into my palms
Try to pull them out
But there they'll always stay.
No matter how many hearts I steal.
The feeling I had will never be real.
I can only live in a fantasy so long
Before any reality is long gone
Lost everything that mattered
And replaced it with the hearts that I'd shattered.
Over the last few days I have cried
These tears I have tried to hide
A simple smile
It's funny how easy it is to pretend I'm ok
No one notices I'm dead inside
That this heart is purely filled with lies
Day by day all hope dies
That this feeling will ever come.
With grief I am over come.
Missing what was never there.
But somehow I just don't care
Apathy has taken over my thoughts
Seems like a wicked disease I have caught
Each day rotting a hole straight through my heart
I'm sure one day soon It's just going to all fall apart
But still no one will notice
Only when I'm pouring with blood will they stop and ask are you ok?
Only then will they realise my smiles were all fake
But then it's to late
Watch me draw my last breath
Close my eyes and sleep
Never to awake.
I'm afraid I've taken all I can take..
 
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